Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Jane Eyre- 'Love is to be Sundered'

"Did I say, a few days since, that I had nothing to do with him but to receive my salary at his hands? Did I forbid myself to think of him in any other light than as a paymaster? Blasphemy against nature! Every good, true, vigorous feeling I have, gathers impulsively around him. I know I must conceal my sentiments: I must smother hope; I must remember that he cannot care much for me. For when I say that I am of his kind, I do not mean that I have his force to influence, and his spell to attract: I mean only that I  have certain tastes and feelings in common with him. I must, then, repeat continually that we are forever sundered:- and yet, while I breathe and think I must love him" (Bronte 260).


And- to this I must add- that I didn't meet a man that I truly liked until I was 23. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

Symphony No. 9- Touched by the Force ~


Symphony No. 9- 
 
 
Touched by The Force ~


{Author's Note: I think that people are generally touched by the same experiences- but they never really give them a label. What if they were touched by something, and realized what it was- what if they realized they weren't afraid to fall? Or what if they found that blue blood was, contrary to what they'd always been told- actually green? What if they learned to extend beyond the matrix of how they had been raised, and realized that they were someone else than who they thought? I call this the force . . . something that we feel but we cannot name. Inspired by the above piece (and perhaps some holistic healing methods).}

 
. . .
 

This piece is magnetic. It offers up small glimpses of eternity. I could listen to this symphony fifty times over, and never run out at the end. It revolves through time like an encircling arc of light, lifts me through the stretch of space about me. I am passing through several different matrices as I hear this, living through a dream of the past- it embraces all of my lives-my past, present, and future all in one. If I believed in Nirvana, I think it would be my enlightenment. Each rendition strikes a new chord- and yet it is always the same one. I feel as though I am looking at several mirrors, in a stretch of midnight-blue. Some part of me reaches forward, an image that I cannot reflect in the dark- but it still lives. It is a bit frightening, really . . . like a second being I never knew I had, coming into the light, struggling against a sea of darkness.


Does this idea frighten you? Perhaps we can call it enlightenment. Alternatively, perhaps it is only a figment of the imagination, or if you like- a different way of thought. Perhaps the spiritual thinkers are correct: it is God reaching down to us through his hand, or maybe it resembles Nirvana . . . no matter how you view it, nothing can change its essence. There is an element in it, a magic, if you will, that mankind does not understand. It is the internal human struggling to cope with existence, to learn how to evolve to a greater being- to climb out of the intellectual abyss in which are we rut, and to reach something else . . . something wonderful. Something we do not understand. This is the human mind at its finest. This is moving out from the sectioned matrix; this is the force.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Celebrate Living ~

Keep reaching for the possibilities, and guess at what might be over that edge. What do you see over the new matrix? Is it impossible to climb it? It is. If you never climb, then you will only know the four sides of a square edge- the ends of reasoning- never knowing, never advancing to the next phase. Your mind is forever stuck in this box of reason that man has put his hands to making.

Do you want to live in a matrix? Would you be cut from a human's mindset, dangling like a puppet, wearing its painted goatee? Live- reach- and dream of time, and space, and energy- don't let the hand create your mustache! Instead, offer your life a vibrancy that will help us to grow and adapt, uncovering  new ideas in time and space- paint your image, and make a dress to call your own.  Potential is so strong- it is reborn every time someone crosses the next line, and finds a new pathway. Don't let fear hold you back.  Scour the ledges, ignore every cross-sign- do this until you finally die. This is the only way to lead a really 'good life.' This is the only way to truly be 'living.' Celebrate- don't waste the time you are given.

Friday, October 3, 2014

The Inheritance ~





           The Inheritance ~


Time is everyone's inheritance. No matter what the outcome, we all must live within its arc, whether it wraps us from behind, around, or lives within us . . . Some of us hold to a previous memory to stay strong, some of us evade our past lives, some let it chase after us. Sometimes I wonder if it is not so much what we do with our time that counts, but the way that we meet it. Truly, time is a tangible object. Not one that we can see, perhaps . . . But a living entity that we must greet. At some point, in some way- we all must meet it, in one way or another . . .

Personally, I chose to live inside the time. Doing everything I can within the moment as it presents itself. Sometimes I use it to seek out the future; for a few moments, I’ll reach beyond the reality of what I know, and distort the image . . . this is usually the scariest. In most cases, I found that it was easier to hold it inside of you- I think this manner of life charms it the most. This seems to reflect upon it wisely.

Time is held and cradled by some.  The wisest soul will learn to abide time, and to enjoy its present company. For that person, it becomes a gift that is rare and unique. There is no limit in the mind of she who cradles time-and no memory that, when pulled from its past world, becomes less than perfect before that one beholder . . .

This parable is filled with hidden meanings. You might consider, perhaps, your own role in the piece, and the way in which you greet time. Upon reflection, I assure you that you will find that your role in it to be essential; it is a rare key that most do not hold, one that is able to unlock inimitable charm and grace. In the end, though, I hope that you will consider it your gift of inheritance, and use it well.


 



Monday, September 8, 2014

Blackmore's Night- An Honest Love ~




When I come home after a long day, begin to sing, stomp my feet, and let my hair dance loose around me, I am finally free. There is a primitive burst of wild magic that flows through a piece of music that you can listen to at any moment, whether it be in the shower, the car, or to the soft sound of chewing dinner. A raw, reckless freedom that lives in each one of us, forced into suppression during the greater part of life- at night, or in the whimsical time-slot, it finally comes home. It is love, in its true form. Can you hang it from a chain, can you tug it loose and release it- does it flow between two people in the light of moon. Or, contrary to what most people believe, can you live within it? At times, a piece of artwork, musical epiphany, or a sonnet touches one so deeply, and calls the heart so deep, that you have no reason to doubt it.




This is what we call love, in all its honest, truest, and most raw form. It may be manipulated, shadowed, and hid to the point that we do not recognize it. However, it is ever present, and it will always come back to us . . . if only we have the courage to release that touching rendition- it will always be present. And, how wonderful it is to always feel what a person does in a single minute, to always be influenced by music! To be in harmony with it all of the time, and always able to step back into that sphere of fervent desire and intense feeling . . . that is what I call love. And thus, here I am saying with all of my soul, a deep thank you to Blackmore's Night for making it possible, and enriching my life so. Many thanks for your riches of truth, and the heart which I can now hold in the present.




Link to Blackmore's Night music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnqzUuZRbmo

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Thoughts From a Poet ~

 
{First Note:}

I don’t know what it is, or what causes it . . . but at night, my inspiration seems to come alive. There is something beautiful about that one, unique moment in which it comes, like a gem shining in the darkness that comes unannounced in the night. It causes me to turn the lights off . . . it is completely unfathomable and undefined. It is an ethereal spirit that lights a spark in me in the dark. It is one that I cannot describe but one as precious as the light, comforting, indescribable spirit of an angel. It is the soul and heart of life.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Complete- poem of the Irish inspiration


~ Complete ~

 

A/N: Why do I write pieces that milk my tears?

I can’t explain it . . .

What will forever be to us, at the end of our exhausting travel?

 


 

~ ~ ~

Myriad of precious,

Gold-flecked nightingales,

Swarmed throughout the night,

As they pressed upon the sky-

In shaded, ethereal white.

 

A pretty rose he gave her,

And pressed into her,

Soft, white hands for it,

Was soulful Night, for humans.

 

A child walked below me,

 To meet the end of-

 A slow exhausting journey . . .

 

A maiden’s eyes slid closed,

In eternal peace to fall,

Over a gravitas land,

Shedding its warmth through her,

And the luminous stroke,

Of the moonlight’s gleam,

Lent over her a faint torch-

 

A child who had once,

Pressed the milky wedge-

Of the gleaming moon,

To play personal piano,

Which the rest of us,

Could only be looked upon-

 

And a subdued owl . . .

Hooted gently to the sounds,

Of the melodious moon-

Whose silent peace immersed us.

 

A bright star shone beside it,

Granting us with its,

Soft, milky light,

Sending a divine message.

 

 

No one was able to see or hear,

The sounds of imminent summons near us . . .

 

As they occurred I alone,

Could hear the troubled changes,

Understood Night’s pain-

 

Night itself wept softly,

Over the shadowed souls that,

Lay now in pasture sleeping,

Where babies shifted within their,

Solid, warm cocoon, unknowing . . .  

 

 Unable to stand such pain,

 I then placed my,

Hands upon one, lone child,

Who sat before me sleeping,

And closed her heavy eyelids,

Waiting into long silence-

For what would soon befall us.

 

I looked into her blue eyes,

And in that moment made a choice-

I finally formed the words,

Of the age-old song that lived,

In my eroded breast while I still,

Had the time to do so . . .

,

‘So the years went by,

The fields lay cold with frost,

Soon it came to pass,

The king rode towards his home.

 

The dusty horse he rode on,

Towards the mountain grandeur,

Was stately gliding over,

The trembling pass.

 

So then the sunset closed then,

And I sought to light a flame,

Of a slowly dying candle,

Before I knew that He’d come-

Home to finally beckon me,

To my eternity.

 

Light the candle darling,

When the night is still,

And the king rides on towards Heaven,

Close your eyes my child,

For tomorrow the time is ours,

To hold forever . . .’

 

The child gazed upon me,

And began to whisper softly,

The repeated song to me,

In low, timorous tones.

 

And as I listened,

The moon lit up the sky while,

A clock now seemed to tick,

As birds hid in their branches,

And then at the last-

We finally lay down to rest.

 

Yet when I awoke anon again,

Silver ribbons cast rays,

Of light about the sky- before I,

Knew the reason for this change,

I was swept into its glowing rise-

Of the ethereal, morning light,

And before I could seek the child,

That I’d taken unto my breast,

I began floating . . .

 

Into my forever ~

 

 

 

~ Dedicated to my grandmother: although she has aged . . . she is nonetheless beautiful . . .